140917 // 23:07 // Jumbled Up Mess

so many things happened today and I didn’t get to properly talked to Ron but at least I managed to solve most of my problem with him and myself. Ron told me it’s the problem that I have with myself. keep blaming myself when it’s a known fact that it’s not. he told me he malas want to layan me already if I keep being like this. meaning blaming myself and overthinking too much. to which I replied back, then ok la, don’t layan me la then and he said then if I tak layan you, you asked why you don’t talk to me bla bla bla so I quickly told him ok2 sorry la. I honestly don’t know how to fix myself. I worry too much and I keep blaming myself for every little thing. but I honestly don’t have it in me to not care about things. I just need to learn on how to not care so much. I just need a little help getting over this shit altogether.